Hold You

"I guess it comes as no surprise but when i close my eyes, i see your face and it drives me crazy, and yo it drives me crazy cause i can't wait until i can just hold you and call you baby."



This line basically sums up exactly the opposite of how I feel about the opposite sex right now. I used to care about things like that more than life itself, and now it's the farthest thought from my mind. I've gotten everything I could've ever wanted in ALL of the relationships that i've had with the women that i've been with in my life, regardless of how scandalous or formal the relationship was.

I've pretty much had it all and I don't think there's much any girl can offer me anymore. I've been with pretty girls, smart girls, cool girls, ugly girls, thick girls, skinny girls, short girls, physical classifications aren't even a criteria i'm interested in anymore. Sex doesn't tempt me anymore and the idea of it does a lot less for me than it used to. The idea of lively conversation and communication far surpasses my desire for sex, as it is much harder to find than the act of consumation.

My life isn't even about finding someone anymore. I honestly don't think that I could be happy staying in one place for the rest of my life. I think that the only thing I can do to make myself happy would be to do something that everyone thinks is impossible, show it to them, and then find something new. The reason that this makes me happy of all things, is not because it shows people that i'm right or that they're wrong, it's just that it forces people to expand their views and to get out of their standard thought processes and that they and their belief systems are capable of error.

I just want to do something to help everyone.